Wednesday, 29 July 2020

Is anti-Zionism anti-Semitism?

 

“Israeli propagandists deliberately conflate anti-Zionism with anti-Semitism in order to discredit, bully, and muzzle critics of Israel.”

Prof Avi Schlaim, Professor of International Relations:

 

The founder of Zionism at the end of the 19th century, Theodor Herzl, was a proponent of a Jewish homeland. He was an admirer of the British Empire and wrote to Cecil Rhodes, founder of the white settler colony named after him, “You are being invited to help make history. It does not involve Africa but a piece of Asia Minor, not Englishmen but Jews … I turn to you … because it is something colonial ..”


Chaim Weizmann, who suceeded Herzl, wrote that, “Should Palestine fall within the British sphere of influence and should they encourage Jewish settlement … we could develop the country, bring back civilisation and form a very effective guard for the Suez Canal.”


You don’t have to be a Jew to be a Zionist. Prayers at the US Embassy, on the day Trump moved it to Jerusalem, were delivered by Robert Jeffries, a Dallas megachurch pastor who said Hitler was sent by God to drive the Jews to their ancestral land.


The Jewish opponents of Zionism could be found at the same time as Herzl in the Jewish Bund, founded in 1897 in Poland and Russia. They stressed the principles of, socialism, secularism and doyikayt or “localness.”


Doyikayt was encapsulated in the Bund slogan: “There, where we live, that is our country.” One of their early leaders, Viktor Adler, declared “Bundists wish to shatter the existing economic frameworks and show the Jewish masses how a new society can be built not by escape, but by struggle. We link the essence of the Jewish masses’ life to that of humankind.”



With all this history in mind it is not difficult to understand why Jeremy Corbyn has been vilified, but he keeps good company. Here are a few:


Albert Einstein; “The (Israeli) state idea is not according to my heart. I cannot understand why it is needed … I believe it is bad.”



Marek Edelman, one of the leaders of the1943 Warsaw Ghetto uprising compared the Palestine resistance to ZOB, the Jewish fighters in Warsaw.  


Hannah Arendt, political scientist: “The trouble is that Zionism has often thought and said that the evil of antisemitism was necessary for the good of the Jewish people.”



Isaac Asimov, novelist: “I find myself in the odd position of not being a Zionist ... I think it is wrong for anyone to feel that there is anything special about any one heritage of whatever kind.”

 

Primo Levi, a survivor of Auschwitz, said, “Everyone has their Jews and for the Israelis they are the Palestinians”.

 
Uri Avnery, ex-Israeli army officer: “What will be seared into the consciousness of the world will be the image of Israel as a blood-stained monster, ready at any moment to commit war crimes and not prepared to abide by any moral restraints.”

 

Daniel Barenboim, Israeli pianist and conductor: “I don’t think the Jewish people survived for 20 centuries, mostly through persecution and enduring endless cruelties, in order to now become the oppressors, inflicting cruelty on others. That is why I am ashamed of being an Israeli today.”


Lenni Brenner, writer and civil rights activist: “The Zionist leaders were uninterested in Fascism itself. As Jewish separatists they only asked one question, the cynical classic: 'So? Is it good for the Jews?'”


Martin Buber, Israeli philosopher: “How great was our responsibility to those miserable Arab refugees in whose towns we have settled Jews who were brought here from afar; whose homes we have inherited, whose fields we now sow and harvest; the fruits of whose gardens, orchards and vineyards we gather; and in whose cities that we put up houses of education, charity and prayer. . ”



Richard Cohen, US columnist: “The greatest mistake Israel could make at the moment is to forget that Israel itself is a mistake … the idea of creating a nation of European Jews in an area of Arab Muslims (and some Christians) has produced a century of warfare.”

 

Henry Siegman, Rabbi and director of the U.S./Middle East Project: “Israel has crossed the threshold from ‘the only democracy in the Middle East’ to the only apartheid regime in the Western world.”

 

Miriam Margolyes: “My support for the Palestinian cause is fiercer because I am Jewish.’

 

Harold Pinter. On Israel’s 60th anniversary said, “We cannot celebrate the birthday of a state founded on terrorism, massacres and the dispossession of another people from their land."



Richard Falk, former UN special rapporteur on human rights:
called Israeli policies in the Occupied Territories “a crime against humanity.” Falk also has compared Israel’s treatment of the Palestinians to the Nazi treatment of the Jews.



Sigmund Freud: “I concede with sorrow that the baseless fanaticism of our people is in part to be blamed for the awakening of Arab distrust. I can raise no sympathy at all for the misdirected piety which transforms a piece of a Herodian wall into a national relic, thereby offending the feelings of the natives.”



Erich Fromm, social psychologist: “The claim of the Jews to the Land of Israel cannot be a realistic political claim. If all nations would suddenly claim territories in which their forefathers lived two thousand years ago, this world would be a madhouse.”


Alexei Sayle: “The propaganda that's thrown against Jeremy Corbyn is digraceful. Until he appeared you had to vote for one kind of Oxbridge twat or another, people who all go to the same dinner parties.”


Noam Chomsky, "The way charges of anti-semitism are being used in Britain to undermine Jeremy Corbyn is not only a disgrace, but also an insult to the memory of the victims of the Holocaust.” 

 

 

 


Sunday, 26 July 2020

From Cats to Rats


I live on the west side of the Holloway Road in north London. In these Covid days I make regular walks northwards and pant my way up Highgate Hill from Archway, passing the Whittington hospital and its cat. Legend has it that the 15th century Mayor of London made his fortune by selling his cat to a rat-infested country. So not all money is ill-begotten. And not all legends are true!


At the top I arrive in Highgate Village. This is where George Michael had a house, as still do Sting and Terry Gilliam. Musicians and comedians living there? That’s OK with me, but take a look at this ‘house’. 

 

 

For the last twelve years ‘Witanhurst’, described as the second largest palace in London (after Buckingham), has been under reconstruction. This photo explains why it’s taking so long. It is owned by Russian fertiliser magnate Andrey Guryev and was bought for £50m through British Virgin Islands tax haven company, Safran Holdings. After this work its value has been estimated at £300m.

 

 

Back home and on the other,  east side of the Holloway Road you will find Jeremy Corbyn. Here he is leaving his 'palace' with his wife, described by the Daily Mail as "sharing his zeal for Left-wing politics who imports Fairtrade coffee from her homeland." The Mail has criticised Jeremy for owning his own home. I wonder if his ‘palace’ was bought through a British tax haven.


When Guryev and family finally move into Highgate will we see them on bicycles? No need. Looks like they can get all the exercise they need without leaving home.

Russian oligarchs are major funders of the Tory Party.

 

Talking of money. As at 1.00pm Sunday 26 July donations to Jeremy Corbyn's legal costs are over £266,000 

 

 

Friday, 24 July 2020

Fight for Corbyn and scream

 

As I start writing this blog the gofundme donations in support of JeremyCorbyn’s legal fees stand at £130,150.


Initiated by pensioner, Carole Morgan, with these words: “It is reported that John Ware a reporter for Panorama is taking legal action for libel against former Labour leader Jeremy Corbyn. The relentless attacks on Mr Corbyn, a man of integrity, honesty and humility cannot be allowed to continue and we have an opportunity here to offer him support in a practical way. It will also let him know that his supporters have not forgotten him, nor have they gone away.”


Carole’s intention was to raise £20,000 so this gofunder is a good example of ‘money doesn’t talk it screams’. No, not Bob Dylan whose words in “It’s Alright Ma”, were ‘money doesn’t talk it swears.’ ‘It screams’ is properly attributed to Clara Luper who led a wave of sit-in campaigns that helped desegregate lunch counters across the US South in the 60s.


Bob Dylan is great, but we need to follow the example of Luper here and let the money and the politics scream.


So please donate to this scream, but then follow Clara Luper and act. If you are a member of a trade union what is your union doing? Can you initiate a local campaign in support of Jeremy? How about insisting your national office mobilise their funds in Jeremy’s Support?


I recently posted this on The People’s Campaign for Corbyn: “Am I being naive or is this assault on Jeremy Corbyn connected in part to his support for the Palestinians? of course in addition there was that nonsense of 'For the Many Not the Few'. My father was one of the first Allied doctors to help liberate Bergen-Belsen concentration camp. My introduction to fascism was being hit on the head by the Nazis of the British Movement. I stand with Corbyn.”


We have a massive movement ready to take action in support of the politician who stands ‘for the many’.

When I was in hospital Jeremy visited and the ward I was in went crazy as he arrived. I knew then that we have the numbers and they don't. When we scream we will be heard.


Rise like lions after slumber ...”


As I complete this blog the legal fund stands at £142,000. That’s more than £12,000 donated in less than two hours. Here we go!

 

 


Thursday, 23 July 2020

David Wilson articles, 2000 - 2019




The NHS is Our Shield, Public Reading Rooms, 20 July 2020
Where is My Vote, Peoples Campaign for Corbyn FB,  06 January 2020
El Pepe, Peoples Campaign for Corbyn FB,  02 January 2020
In Defence of Simplicity, David Wilson website, 02 December 2019 
The Crucible Re-staged, David Wilson website, 27 November 2019
Manifesto of Hope, The London Economic, 21 November 2019
Between the Wars, David Wilson website, 21 November 2019
Meeting Ken, David Wilson website, 9 November 2019
No More Tweedles, David Wilson website, 7 November 2019
Who Will Fight for the NHS, David Wilson website, 27 October 2019 
Brexit Jokers, David Wilson website, 27 October 2019
Winning the Election is Easy, The London Economic, 20 July 2019 
What Isn't Reported about Julian Assange, The London Economic, 16 April 2019
Corbyn must stand strong against attacks on Israel, The People's News, 28 August 2018
Palestinians have Right to Return and Live, The People's News, 20 May 2018
Israel's Act of Terror, The People's News, 14 May 2018
Giving the Finger to the DWP, The Canary, 11 May 2018  
Disabled Tribunal Victory, The London Economic, 10 May 2018
Disabled victory in courts: The People's News 9 May 2018  
Labour Party Remains on the Up, The People's News, 4 May 2018
Theresa May + husband + war = profit, The People's News, 26 April 2018
Criticising Israel is not anti-semitic, The People's News, 23 April 2018
The Pornography of War, The People's News, 12 April 2018
The Overton Window, The People's News, 6 April 2018
The Overton Window, The Internattional Times, 19 April 2018
Corbyn is no Anti-Semite, The People's News, 26 March 2018 
Corbyn Wise not to Spoil for Fight , The People's News, 15 March 2018
Disabled Man Taken off Disability Allowance, The People's News, 14 March 2018
The Calabash Tree, having a heart operation, 17 Feb 2018
NHS Privateers, The London Economic, 2 Feb 2018
Why Boris Johnson, a Face to be Punched, Public Reading Rooms review
My Disabled Son Stripped of Benefits, The London Economic, 24 Aug 2017
The Fool is for the Many, Jaroslav Hašek's novel The Good Soldier Schwejk, 14 July 2017
Music of the Spheres, Heathcote Williams play, 18 June 2017
Them or Us in the Election, The London Economic, 7 June 2017
Exposing Corruption in Charities, Guardian article about charity corruption, 16 April 2017,
Abandoning Refugee Children, The London Economic, 11 Feb 2017
In The Living Years, for Stand Alone under pseudonym, 16 Sep 2016
Who Speaks for the Refugee Children, Counterpunch after visit to Calais, 20 May 2016
Planet Zembar, Subdural Haematoma article in Huffington Post, 17 March 2015
Famous anti-Zionist Jews, Stop the War Coalition, 12 Aug 2014
What a Strange Way to Protect Civilians, article for US antiwar website about depleted uranium weapons, 16 April 2011
Bush in London, Counterpunch, 18 June 2008
The Collapse of Iraq's Health Services, Counterpunch article about collapse of Iraq's health services, 14 Oct 2006
Depleted Uranium Weapons, Future Trust, 2006
Gloucester Weapons Inspectors, Counterpunch, 30 Jan 2003
Music and War, as published by the European Journal of Intercultural Studies, Vol 10, issue 3, 1999 and in The Journal of Dramatic Theory and Criticism, University of Kansas, Fall 2000, Vol. XV, No. 8 & re-written for a chapter in Left Field



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Tuesday, 14 July 2020

The NHS is our shield





“My health depends on your health. Your health depends on my health. We cannot escape one another. The liberties that we prize so highly depend on the health of all of us.” Richard Horton, Editor of The Lancet   


While French health workers have won a pay rise here, in the UK, they are to be charged for parking their cars at work. This in a situation where the UK has 2.7 hospital beds per 1000 population compared to France’s 6.2 and an EU average of 5.2.



I am angry and I don't think I am alone. Certainly those who have been, or are, NHS patients, will understand me.

For the last six years I have depended on the NHS for my continued existence - for being alive. Not just alive, but able to live an active life in mind and body. This is what happened to me. 




In August 2014 I was on the Croatian island of Mljet where every morning my wife Anne and I drank coffee overlooking the Adriatic from the terrace above the harbourside cafe in the small village of Kozarica. Our favourite table was shaded by a pine tree. One morning I stood up and hit my head on an overhanging branch. I was probably on Planet Zembar where Anne says I go when I’m not paying attention to my surroundings. I was left with a mildly throbbing pain.

Two months later and back in London we arranged to meet a friend at The Victoria and Albert Museum.  A wet, cold, November Saturday afternoon, an ideal day for a museum visit. Titled ‘Disobedient Objects’ the exhibition we visited was examining ‘the powerful role of objects in movements for social change’.  




Hanging from the ceiling was a battered pan lid used by one of the Madres de Plaza de Mayo, on their demonstrations when campaigning for their ‘disappeared’ children during the military dictatorship in the 1970s. There was a slingshot made from the tongue of a shoe that a Palestinian had used against Israeli tanks. There were homemade shields made to look like book covers that had been carried by students in Rome demonstrating against austerity cuts - Boccaccio’s The Decameron, Dante’s the Divine Comedy and George Orwell’s Homage to Catalonia. Protected with literature.

It was surreal and my head started to spin. I couldn’t read the text that accompanied the photos and displayed objects. I had to sit down.

We went to the cafe, ordered tea and scones and I tried to pour my tea over the jam. While this was going on, our friend received a call from his wife, and when he told her what was happening she told him to tell Anne to get me to hospital. Anne said that I had been behaving strangely for some weeks. That morning she had found me taking a pee without lifting the toilet lid and that, on our way to the V & A, I had tried to use my mobile phone in place of my travel card.

By the time Anne and I  reached Archway station I was incapable of doing little more than lean on her and stagger up the hill to the Whittington hospital.

It was early on a Saturday evening and  already busy. I was placed on a trolley in the corridor, but after half an hour was wheeled off and given a CT scan. The diagnosis was not a condition I'd  heard of nor wanted to, left chronic subdural haematoma. My brain had been pushed to the right side of my cranium.

I was told that they were finding it hard to get me a bed in a neurological hospital, The London and the National Hospital for Neurology and Neurosurgery, Queen’s Square were the options. Two days later I was moved to Queen’s Square.

There are two types of haematoma: acute and chronic. Acute is the more serious of the two and is caused by trauma when rapid bleeding fills the area between the outer layer of the brain - the meninges - and the brain itself. This can occur as a result of a major blow to the head, in a car accident for example or when skiing. Michael Schumacher was one such victim when he fell, not in a car crash, but while skiing, his injury caused by the camera mounted on his helmet.    .

Chronic haematoma also involves bleeding, but this may takes several days or weeks after injury to become apparent. As we get older, our brains shrink which makes us more susceptible to haematomas because the veins are stretched. It can occur after a minor head injury, especially among the elderly. The bleeding presses on the brain. There is competition between blood and brain and when blood wins, the brain is moved off-centre. In severe cases, the lower part of the brain can be pushed where the spinal cord is attached. This is very dangerous because the brain stem is where the impulse to breathe is located.
   
With all haematomas, small veins between the surface of the brain and its outer covering can, on impact, stretch, tear and bleed. This covering, the dura, is a lining of tissue immediately below the skull that encloses the brain. It is tough and has been compared to a piece of kevlar.
   
On arrival at Queen’s I was asked if I had recently hit my head. Our attic bedroom has a sloping ceiling, and, in Zembar mode, I often hit my head at night in the dark while making my way to the toilet. But I felt that the Croatian pine tree was the likely suspect, even though it had been two months since our return home from Mljet. Douglas Katz, Professor of Neurology at Boston School of Medicine, has said, "the person may appear fine initially because the mass of blood in the head is expanding and there isn't too much pressure on the brain yet." He refers to this as 'Talk and Die' syndrome.

And those two months may have been the reason why they found two blood lakes in my head, perhaps the first added to by my Zembar behaviour in our attic bedroom. 

When Anne signed the consent form before my operation, they told her the procedure carried risks: seizures, infection, being left in a vegetative state, even death.

Later, she told me that, while I was in the operating theatre, she went to the hospital chapel and lit four candles: one from her and three from my two sons and grandson. She then returned to the ward, staring at the empty space where my bed had been. She says she hoped for the best, but was preparing herself for the worst.




The operation involved two burr-hole evacuations to drain the accumulated blood in my head. It is one of the oldest surgical procedures, known as trepanning,  Evidence of trepanation has been found from Neolithic times and was used by the Mayans, Aztecs and Incas as part of their ancient rituals. Shamans used it to purge bad spirits in cases of mental disease, epilepsy and blindness. It was carried out with a piece of flint and without anaesthetic. In some ancient cultures, heads were very significant, and the bone taken out was prized as an amulet.

After the operation, I woke up from the anaesthetic to find that my amulet was a square, flat plastic bag. It was attached by tubing to one of the holes drilled into my head to drain post-op saline solution and any remaining blood.

I was left with persistent expressive asphasia, a partial loss of language, which in my case was accompanied by confusion. Unable to remember my name or date of birth, I dreaded the nurses who regularly took my blood pressure. Their first question was always, ‘Where are you?’ One of them later told me that I would reply out of concern for them with, “Don’t you know?” 

I couldn’t sleep and lay awake trying to work out what was going on. A cup of tea would be nice, except achieving it was difficult. I would walk towards the night desk, practising the words I needed. ‘Please, can I have a cup of tea?’ By the time I got there I had forgotten the words. As I stood in silence, the duty nurse would smile, ‘Go back to bed, and I’ll bring you your tea.’

I was now so confused I had no idea how to clean my teeth or wash my hands. I could only say ‘Yes’ or ‘No’ to questions. Words on a page no longer made sense. I had lost the ability to speak in sentences or to read. A speech therapist came to my bedside with word exercises. At first, I was unable to read single-syllable words like ‘book’ and ‘cold’. ‘Read book’ and ‘Cold Day’ were beyond impossible.

I was given a sheet with pictures and words underneath and asked to point at an image and then its word definition. On the first row in the first box was a bear holding his head. The text underneath said, ‘I’m in pain.’ I struggled to decipher ‘pain’. Stumbling over the tangle of letters, I finally managed to pronounce the word. When the therapist asked me to read the next box with four bears holding hands that said ‘I want my family’. I answered with ‘sad bears’.
 



My Brazilian friend, Deicola Neves, brought his guitar and played bossa nova to the ward. He tried to get me to play, but I couldn’t remember a single chord.

I don’t recall being frightened from the moment I arrived at the Whittington to the moment I left Queen Square. I wasn’t even fearful when they took me to the operating theatre.

At time of death, it is said that the body releases chemicals that ease the mind from feelings of panic and fear. Perhaps this also happens when your skull is about to be opened. My consultant told me that patients facing trepanning manage to hold themselves together to be able to get through it. She added that patients who worry the least take longer to recover because the mind, which fights off fear at the most critical of moments, only delays the trauma, but cannot avoid it.

Four days after the operation, and with no improvement, my consultant stood at the foot of my bed. She was unhappy with my progress because of my inability to speak and read. I was told I might have to have a second, more invasive, operation.

Anne asked what was involved. The consultant explained that a new window of bone would have to be cut out of my skull so the brain could be scraped. This procedure would remove the old, dried blood from previous bleeds in the hope that my ability to read and speak would be restored. There was, she said, no guarantee of success and that there were risks.

As soon as she left my bedside, I indicated to Anne to hand me the sheet the speech therapist had given me that morning. I had been able to read the one word, pain. I slowly read out all the captions under all the pictures.

I have no explanation for this, except that hearing about a possible, more dangerous operation unlocked the fear in my mind. I began to speak and read. Within two hours, I was talking reasonably.

The nurses and cleaners came from Zimbabwe, Nigeria, Uganda, India, the Philippines, Poland, Lithuania, Ireland, England, Columbia, Spain, Portugal. The surgeons were from Italy, China, Ireland, the Philippines and north London. The surgeon who saved my life was Nigerian.

Friends sent me flowers, fruit and cards. Lapsed Catholics lit candles, an Iraqi atheist friend who was in Tunisia made a Friday visit to the mosque to pray for me.

When I was well enough to leave the ward, Anne took me to the chapel where she’d spent an hour each day between the morning and afternoon visiting hours. On entering, I saw a notice saying that THIS CHAPEL IS FOR ALL FAITHS.

On a table near a bank of candles there was a visitors’ book. In that book one inscription read, ‘Thanks to all gods and goddesses and the NHS.’ Another was, ‘Mum was always heading for heaven. But please God, not yet.’

I wrote my own message. In place of the gratitudes to deities, mine said, ‘No offence to Jesus, but he didn't save me. The NHS did.'


* *  *


Three years later, I needed the NHS again. Just before Christmas in 2017, I started getting short of breath when walking uphill or going upstairs. I was also peeing a lot and was concerned about my prostate. I went to my GP and told her my symptoms. She listened to my heart, dropped her stethoscope and told me I must go immediately for an echocardiogram. It’s an ultrasound scan and a small probe is used to send out high frequency waves that create echoes when they bounce off the heart and nearby blood vessels.

It was carried out at a private clinic, the InHealth centre in Ealing, West London. This is one of the growing sub-contracted NHS services and each test costs the NHS £350.

I was diagnosed with atrial fibrilation and aortic stenosis, a heart rhythm disorder along with a narrowing of the aortic valve opening, which causes restricted blood flow.

In early February 2018 I was admitted to St Bartholomew’s Hospital. This area of Smithfield has been the scene of both healing and butchery for over a thousand years. There has been a hospital on the site of the St Bartholomew Priory since 1123, and the meat market is within sniffing distance. It has also been a place of execution. On a wall enclosing the hospital is a plaque that says the Scottish rebel leader William Wallace, ‘Braveheart’, was hung drawn and quartered here in 1315. Sixty years later, the leader of the Peasant’s Revolt, Wat Tyler, was decapitated on this site by the Lord Mayor of London, who then stuck his head on a spike.



In the 19th century, with the growing interest in anatomy and the education of surgeons about the human body and anatomy, Barts had its own body snatchers, or resurrectionists, who were paid to bring in the corpses of the condemned for dissection.

I was there thankfully, neither for decapitation, nor as a medical specimen, but to have an aortic valve replacement. This open-heart procedure involved removing the damaged valve and replacing it with one that can be metal or made from either synthetic or animal tissue. In my case it was to be bovine—from a cow.

Before surgery my body was cooled down from its normal temperature of 37C to18C. The cold slows the body’s metabolism, lessening the risk of brain damage. I was placed in suspended animation with no pulse, no blood pressure and no brain activity. A sort of induced hypothermia. This allows the surgeon to stop the heart long enough to carry out the procedure. 


A heart-lung bypass machine replaces the heart function for the duration of the surgical procedure. Once the operation has been completed, the patient is warmed up, and the heart restarted. Yale’s New Haven Hospital’s heart surgeon, Dr John Elefteriades says of this process, “It is the most fascinating technique to which I have ever been exposed in medicine and each time, it seems a miracle to me that it works.”

Anne was there post surgery when I was being warmed up in the Intensive Care Unit (ICU), tended to by my own specially-trained nurse. I was wired and tubed up and when the nurse turned the propofol off, Anne was shocked because I went from a comatose state to one of agitation. When I awoke, she said, I shot up like Frankenstein’s monster.
 

I remember very little about the cab journey home, but Anne told me I was crying, and pointing excitedly at passers-by, glad to be alive.

Our cat seemed to understand my convalescent condition and spent the following days while I recuperated by jumping onto the end of the bed and not my chest as he had done before. Then he would settle himself across my legs and purr. He only left me at meal times and to use his litter tray.

But even with cat therapy, my health problems were not over because six months later, when reading on the couch, I started screaming that I had lost feeling in my left hand and leg. Anne remembered the acronym, F.A.S.T., to determine if someone had had a stroke. She first checked my Face. It was not drooping, but I could not feel the left side of my face. When she asked me to raise my Arms, I could raise them both, but struggled to get my left arm to eye level. I could Speak, but I was slurring my words. She decided that it was Time to call 999.

The paramedics arrived in minutes. They confirmed it was a suspected stroke and, because I was unable to walk, they bounced me down the stairs in their evacuation chair. Twenty minutes later, we arrived at University College Hospital. That is the advantage of living close to the centre of London and being beneficiaries of the capital’s NHS ambulance service. My stroke was bad, but it could have been a lot worse.

From UCH I was moved to Barts where they decided my new heart valve had been infected by a bacteria called streptococcus equinuus. They suspected that the bacteria that caused my endocarditis could have entered my body through the gums or originated in the colon. 


Every morning the ward consultant would cheerily tell me that they might have to operate again to replace my infected valve. I was placed on an intravenous drip while they tried to work out what drug could get rid of the infection. 

Fortunately, Barts clinical laboratory found a drug that successfully attacked the bacteria. Only after I left Barts did I learn that it was touch and go whether they expected me to live. 

I was at Barts for seven weeks. The drip was resupplied every four hours. My temperarure was checked at the same time as was my blood pressure. Massively impressive and caring treatment.


Spending nearly two months in hospital means you get to know your fellow patients.

Barry, a Jamaican, had already had three heart operations when he arrived at Barts for his fourth. His operation lasted 28 hours and they 'lost' him three times. He told me about his out-of-body experiences which had left him scared to go to sleep. He badly needed psychological care, but with the level of cuts in NHS funding, this was unavailable.

Just as food is important to getting better, so is after care.There was a time when post-operative patients would spend time in convalescent hospitals. No longer. In Germany, and even in the former Yugoslavia where I used to live, all operations included a minimum of one month's post-op stay at a health spa.

What memories do I take from the time I spent at Barts? Not the operation and its after-effects of pain and worry, but the nursing care I received with such commitment and humour. 




Brian Pineira, The Filipino nurse who is a valued member of the hospital’s stem-cell research team, but who returns to the wards to do stints in his former role as nurse. It was he who was pushing my bed down a corridor when he learned I was a writer. He brought my bed to a halt and quoted verbatim from Gabriel García Márquez's 'Love in the Time of Cholera': “Age has no reality except in the physical world. The essence of a human being is resistant to the passage of time. Our inner lives are eternal, which is to say that our spirits remain as youthful and vigorous as when we were in full bloom. Think of love as a state of grace, not the means to anything, but the alpha and omega. An end in itself.”

Then there was the nurse who, when replacing my chest bandage, wanted me to breath in deeply. “Puff out your chest,” she said, “like a Robin Redbreast.”



The two ward caterers, Olivia Ellor-Freeman and Lydia Kortey, who brought me tea when I had forgotten to ask for it.


I had visits from family and friends and Deicola Neves repeated his Queen’s Square visit. On this visit he left his guitar with me. Even less able to play with my damaged left hand, it was put to good use by one of the house doctors who would return to my bedside after his ward rounds to play blues music.



I had two wonderful surprises. The Balkan band, Dubioza Kolektiv, visited me when in London on their UK tour and Jeremy Corbyn took time off from being persecuted for daring to speak up for the many and not the few. When he arrived in my ward, there was smiling pandemonium as the nurses, cleaners and catering staff crowded round him for selfies.



I am left with warm memories of those who cared for me, family and friends who visited me, grateful to a cow and a bit angry with horses.

As for the longer-term after effects of my stroke, I walk with a stick and can no longer play guitar because my left hand doesn’t want to wake up. My left leg doesn’t seem to be talking to my brain so I’m always crashing against tables and chairs. I am totally deaf in my right ear and have lost all sense of smell.




When Barry chatted to the patient beside him, a Trinidadian, about memories of their island homes, they talked about their love of the calabash tree, its soft brown bark home to multi-coloured orchids. They told me that these trees, pollinated by bats, grow on hillsides, along roadsides and wherever there are human beings.

The pulp of the fruit has medicinal properties and acts as a remedy for asthma, dysentery and high-blood pressure. It disinfects wounds and is used to treat bruises and tumours.

The NHS is our Calabash tree.

When I was discharged, I left a thank you card with this poem dedicated to my heart surgeon, his surgical team, anaesthetists, the clinical lab who worked out which drug would save me and the nursing/ancillary staff at Barts, Ward 4B. I titled it ‘To my dead Donor’.

My blood pump was stopped
while a machine took over
the job my heart had done
for almost 73 years.
A cow's pericardium replaced
my narrowed, furred valve
that no longer moved like
a sea anemone's fronds.
This valve was given without
agreement or consent
so I made a vow to my dead donor
to never eat beef again.

Last time it was a subdural haematoma.
I escaped with my brain re-centred.
That involved an earlier pact
made with myself to act wisely
with attention to my herd.
My plan of action now
begins with breaking through the fence
to arrive in greener pastures.


Since leaving hospital for the third time, I have written about my experiences of the NHS. I am well aware of the importance of its personnel: who they are, where they come from and the skills that have kept me alive. I have tried to draw attention to the privatisation of the health service and its dangers for both health workers and patients.  How the attacks on the NHS were carried out to benefit the already rich


Jeremy Corbyn's visit to see me took place at a time when he seemed likely to be our next PM campaigning in defence of our public health service

Note for racists. My brain surgeon was Nigerian, my heart surgeon Egyptian, the chief cardiologist a Glaswegian Jew. Today I count nurse Brian Pineira, the Filipino nurse who quoted Márquez, as a personal friend.

In Aneurin Bevan's words, the NHS is a health system based on this principle: “No society can legitimately call itself civilised if a sick person is denied medical aid because of lack of means.”

We need to bear this in mind as we fight for our NHS against the privatisers. They are creeping in, and have already crept through, the cracks in our defences. Brian told me what pride he once took in serving food to his patients and how this was a central part of nursing care. Today this has been handed to Serco, who run our prisons and whose annual revenue from healthcare is over £1.4 billion.

Breakfast was tepid tea or coffee, cereal or porridge and toast. As I bit into the damp bread, I could imagine Serco executives meeting to discuss how to cut back their costs to increase their profits. “Let's start with breakfast.”


This article has now been published by Public Reading Rooms